Dream Crusher

I vent better when someone else asks me to write about a "topic" rather than just trying to get whatever is in  out on to the paper.  So I asked my roommate to give me a topic and she chose the snow falling on the park, at which I replied, you mean the garden?  She told me I was crushing her dreams, hence, the title of today.
And, yes, it is snowing.  And, yes, the park or garden or whatever looks beautiful.  But it's still cold and muddy and slushy.  It's the kind of day that wants to make you curl up in bed and sleep through it all.  But I'm actually awake today and I sleep all the time, so the weather and I are at a stand still.  I wonder who will win.  Maybe it'll be me and I can finally get this web site together that I've talked about since last year. That'd be nice.
Okay, seriously, I'm losing it.  I've been single for almost a year and I'm happy about it, but there is someone I have been seeing and he hasn't called in weeks.  Did he move on?  Did he finally find a girl that isn't me?  Someone that fits into his little world without purple hair?  I'm not the kind you would find with a jock and I'm not the kind who stays home and out of the way.  I too like to go out with the guys and watch the game.  I like to be social and I am sick of being the "secret"  I was always the secret, the girl you call in the middle of the night to meet up with quietly.  The one who has nothing to do you your actual life.  Just something to kill the time until something else shows up and then you go off and marry her.  I'm the one who hands them off better than they came in.  Granted, I am drawn to the "fixer uppers" but once they're all better, that's it.
My dog is funny, she has to keep all the doors open in the house so that she can see everyone all the time.  And I can't believe I forgot the delivery price at IKEA.  I've got two roommates and they had some questions so there was a little bit of a interruption.  No worries.
Where was I...  Oh, yes, fuck em!  I am not going to be this secret tucked away in some dark 3am corner.  I am not going to sit by the phone and wait for him to let me know when he isn't busy with all his other friends.  I am going to be in charge of my life and my time.  I am going to go out and treat my self good and enjoy this time, while I'm single and loving the city and not let anyone else get in my way. I will have a love affair with this city.  I will let it take care of me.
Speaking of taking care of me, I should really eat something and take a shower.  And get this damn web site going.
If anyone is reading this, I ask a favor...  Ask me to write about something.  Give me a topic or and idea. A sound or a smell.  Something, and I'll write about it.